Our worst nightmare has come true

I remember so clearly the day i found out i was pregnant with Iyla (just over a year ago now) and the first thing i thought was 'What if this baby has FPIES too?' Throughout my pregnancy i comforted myself with the thought that the chiro cured Abbey so quickly, surely he would be able to cure the baby too if it came to that. Deep in the back of my mind though the worry was continually there, what if NAET didn't work? What if the baby was worse the Abbey? I tried not to let myself think these things because i was determined to stay positive.
Then Iyla was born and she already so quickly started showing symptoms of allergies. Off to the chiro we went with such high hopes. A few days ago now those hopes came crashing down when the chiro sadly told me that he didnt know what else to do and nothing he was trying was working. Totally devastated is the best was to describe how i felt. My thoughts went straight back to what it was like dealing with Abbey and watching her in so much pain all the time and i just wanted to cry. This was not supposed to happen, this was not the way it was meant to be.

The past few days i have really been struggling with the fear of what is to come when Iyla starts solids. I am trying to give my fear and worry to God as i know He is the only one who is going to be able to help me through this again. He got me through it once so i know He'll be there for me again. But being human like i am it is hard to let go of these feelings and trust everything will be ok. I was also diagnosed with Post Natal Depression this week so the negative thinking is hard to get away from.

Onto a more positive note, my doctor is being fantastic with what Iyla is going through. In her own time she has been researching FPIES and found an allergist in Perth who deals with lots of FPIES kids. She called her yesterday and told her all of Iyla's history. The allergist has suggested i take Iyla off goats milk formula and try her on Karicare Aptimal Allerpro. She is wondering if all Iyla's random reactions are actually from her formula and not just us touching her mouth or dummy. We have a referral to see this allergist now and will hopefully get in to see her sometime before Christmas. They also want to do testing to make sure we rule out everything else that could possibly be wrong with her before we officially say it's FPIES again.

So it's been an interesting week. It will be interesting to see how everything turns out in the coming months. I will keep you all posted on how Iyla goes with her new formula. She is still pretty miserable from having her immunisations 3 days ago so i'm not going to start until she is hopefully feeling better.